A few nights ago I dreamed I was at a construction site in Port Clinton (I don't know why PC, but that's not important). A few other guys and I were putting up a house. We put the framing together, designed what the house should look like, stuff like that. As we started to lift the frames into place, I realized something: there was no foundation. We were putting the frames on flat earth with nothing to hold them up or even keep them steady. I mentioned this to some of the other guys who were working, but they didn't seem to care. The walls came up and fell over again and again. We weren't even bothering to prop them up against anything. Before I woke up I realized (you know how sometimes when you dream you automatically know stuff and have a 3rd person omniscient view? It was like that) I was working at the Northwoods Summer Project. In my dream, I knew everybody working, but I didn't remember who was there after I woke up (again, one of those weird dream things I'm sure you all have had). It wasn't until the next day that I derived a meaning from this dream. I'm heading into NWP with absolutely no foundation. I haven't built myself up or prepared myself spiritually or really physically (I've gone running a couple of times since I've been home, that's about it). Without this foundation, anything I learn or do at NWP will crumble before I even leave. That's sort of a waste of a summer then. I could blame not preparing myself on my job. The hours I work kill me. But I need to stop blaming my job, which provides me with money to go to NWP. I need to stop being lazy. I just need to learn how. | 
